The hunt

For the last 2 years I have been on the hunt…the hunt for THE gift(s), my gift(s)
Those who have walked closely with me are nodding their heads right now …:-)

See as I have been growing, I have been blessed to see many blessed with gifts…
So am usually like…Me, Me, Me, what’s my gift, when's MY turn???
So I am ever so expectant of THE GIFT(s)…

All other retreats I have prophecies that are amazing, this time, it was eemmmm...Well, not so bright and chirpy. And from 2 very different sources…
It was repeated that I am fearful of my calling, and I’m like…eeemmm…if I knew what it was, then I would know if I am fearful or not…

So, I was like God, why is it when it comes to me you seem to be speaking in parables? As in seriously?? So I had a debate with God (more of me crying my eyes out whining:why,when …)
I mean, that night the prophecies were so clear for most …except me!
So I felt a little played and whined and whined…and was truly frustrated. (Arent we lucky God is a patient God and doesnt strike us down with a lightning bolt when we are eeemmm, acting up!)

Now, I have to share something…the power of walking with the right people in life..wise people.
I shared something I wrote and my friend asked, why were you searching so hard when you’re gift is so clear?

One thing I do know, once God speaks, usually it takes about a week for it to make sense to me (I think its my thick skull…hmmm)
So, I have found my calling, my gift… well, one of them.

I don’t know what other gifts He has in store for me, and I am excited about it, but I am not anxious anymore.
Gods timing is truly the right timing. That evening, if He told me I have the gift of healing and prophecy, as my friend was told, I would probably go into panic mode and say how, me, what,….and then faint.

So , what have I learnt:

1. Trust God that it will be revealed at the right time. And no amount of laying of hands will make it be revealed sooner!
2. For talents: think back to things you loved in childhood (music, dancing, art, math’s…)
3. Walk with the right people, wise people. Always seek the wise (and read His word to receive wisdom, all the answers are in His book.) For when you are too dense and looking in the wrong direction, they will nudge you and point you in the right direction. God speaks through the body of Christ (the church). When you cant hear, or choose not too, He will use someone else, or something to get your attention.
4. Write down your prophecies, for they will surely come to pass. (Of course, prophecies, are usually confirmed by 2 or 3 other sources, who are not linked. And they are always to build you up and not put you down…choose wisely who you let speak into your life...)
5. Patience, Patience, Patience my child. He will speak, and you will hear.

For a while it seemed people were zooming passed, even my own students seemed to grow at a rate I wasn’t. And I asked God why?
His answer was simple, you have the calling and anointing, but you are fearful...

Ouch.

I constantly seek to hear from Him, for I don’t seem to be able to, sometimes. But it works just as a bank does...you deposit (prayer, following His word, investing time in him), and then you can withdraw (you can hear His word, Things are no longer in parables, He grows you ).Yes, for some people it may happen almost over night, but understand that He has a different path for everyone and their purpose may need them to awaken to His word, slightly earlier as things need to be done.

So yes, I will seek to know Him first, sow first, and then will be able to reap. And sometimes dont go searching too far and wide, the answer may be literally ...right under your nose.