As i was typing away i noticed i had lost my network connection. I looked up to see the I.T guys scratching their heads. So I switched on my phones hot spot, then it occurred to me....it occurred to me that i was no longer on their network. No longer within 'The matrix'. Then the thoughts came flooding in: 

1. What am I connected to?... for it is then connected to me.
2. If it’s connected to me it has access to me and monitors where I am, what I do, where I visit, for how long, what content I pull down or put up. 
yes,...not very original thoughts but i just never thought of it much as i was now...

 So, I pondered… 

 When we are connected to a system, we are…traceable, reachable and accessible. So, system connection = system access to all within the system right? 

So... If we plug into the system of the heavens all we download is heavenly material that can then be manifested in earthly realms. If we plug into the earthly systems all we digest and express is the earthly, worldly view, which we regurgitate, share and live out. 

When you are off ‘The matrix ‘ the enemy will have to search pretty hard to gain access to you. He cannot easily reach you and can only intimidate you, whilst outside of the system. Picture the difference between the burglar outside your gate trying to throw stones, break windows, shout foul things over the wall…versus, the burglar with the key, in your house, in your face! 

Now, bear with me here as we step back. Most of us sign network access forms to gain access to our work place LAN. We are held responsible and have signed to what we will and will not do whilst on it, on the web etc. We also are pretty aware that anything we do whilst on it is pretty much, retrievable, accessible and can even be used in a court of law. (A thread for another day on 'navigating the courts of heaven') .

So fast forward. The same occurs when we ascribe, subscribe to the heavenly realms? Does it not?? When we ascribe to and take up the covenant with the Lord, we gain access to his heavenly network. This means, we have access to all things to do with destiny, purpose and wisdom knows our individual names for she has access to us and us her. So, this also means, all heavenly hosts have direct access to us for we are connected, online and always …available. 

 The reverse plays where even when we are not connected, the Lord will always, always try and call us in and ask us to connect, and He will do this from outside our current network as we have not given Him access in. So picture the holy spirit nudging you, poking you, sending you messages, vibrations, thoughts, feelings ….versus, the Holy spirit working in you, leading you and speaking directly to your heart as He reveals all the secrets He has been sent to reveal to you in this season, in this life. 

 So, why don't we disconnect from the worlds LAN , connect to the heavenly realms WAN. This then allows The Holy Spirit to help us gain access to the heavenly realms allowing us to download content to earthly realms. And the more we stay connected and access files within the heavenly realms, the richer we get as our spirit gets filled up to over flowing. then and only then, do we begin to impact the earthly realms with the abundance flowing from our spirit. Connect.

letters of love

My heart on a silver platter I surrender,
My soul, as whole as can be, I open
My breath I would give up, thoughtlessly in a heart beat for you

When you smile, my heart dances,
When you laugh, it’s like the songs of angles…a language written in love
Ours, second to Gods love
Our desires, second to His

My dance, I let you lead
Every beat and tempo in your possession
My beauty beaming, a reflection of your love

As we walk, one in spirit,
My thoughts synchronized with yours,
My tastes and desires magnified by your preference,
I thrive and flourish with every ray of your love.

I thank the Creator for I no longer dance alone,
My solo replaced by a harmonious duet,
My feet, partnered ever so gracefully with yours.

Thank you for being my life-dance partner.
For music fills my soul when you’re near me,
My feet responding to your intricate symphony,
never skipping a beat

My heart to be joined with yours I give
And as our souls bow to the one who made us be,
I thank Him,
for our spirits dance together as one in this opera calld life

letters to the world: when i smile

Just because I listen, does not mean I believe
Just because I nod my head, does not mean I have accepted what you are feeding me
I will nod and smile and watch you tell another lie

Just because I do not scream and shout, doesn’t mean that I am happy with you
For you see “ladies never loose composure… we count from 1-10…and breath”

I am an open book…but maybe too open…
I am shut now.
Closed for stock taking, and the clearance sale will soon be on, for I need to get rid of some stuff that holds…or rather, has no value to me anymore

So dear, Just because I sit and smile sweetly,
do not take me for a fool,
For I am a woman…a strong and beautiful woman
I will shed my tears behind closed doors to the one who so carefully crafted me and cares for me

So dear, when I smile, sweetly,…worry, for maybe your time is up
This book is no longer on the shelf.
No more invitations to read it or understand it,
It needs to understand itself first.

See, you can not break me for I am made to withstand all weather
My body with its exquisite design can carry another life for 9 months
...and even love the little brat when it utters “I hate you mummy”

See, please understand my power
It comes form above and resides deep within, flowing and growing

Do you not comprehend, in your simple mind, that I am a pearl,
Precious, beautiful and strong?
Do you not see that I am a rock, not easily moved or moulded.
I do not carry my scars on the outside for all to see.
No, they are hidden within, for Him to fix.

Until you can match me and be the man God called you to be.
Step

If you can not catch up to me
I will look around to one that has His eye set on Gods heart.
The one who moves swiftly, knowing every moment counts.
For I do not have time to waste, it doesn’t belong to me...which means I would be wasting self.

Dilly dally all you wish,
I keep on marching
For standing still is moving backwards.

And I know I will meet him, as I march,
For he will be marching to the same tune…for now…
to a new tune I march

letters to heaven: jesus take the wheel

Back on this page again…

Oh, So I need to let go, Oh God help me…

When your heart says no…listen
When your spirit whispers ‘be careful'...listen
For no one is more on your side than He…
He knows you inside out, where you’ve been and where you’re going.

Your spirit is you guide, your moral compass
Some call it sixth sense, intuition….
I call Him exactly what He is, the Holy spirit.

For God lives inside of me,
So I know what is good and bad
I just need to listen to his prompting

When you feel that sensation in your stomach that tell you something aint right…listen
For it will only persist for a short while.
The spirit is gentle and kind and can not intrude or push His way through.
You were given free will.
Learn him, Ask to hear and see what is, what’s to come and to learn from what has been

When you cry, cry to the one who created you.
For he truly cares,
And when your done crying, leave it at His feet without doubting.

For the angel has bottled your tears and carried them into his royal presence, and Jesus sits on His right hand petitioning for you, thus, who can be against you?
No one.

No fear goes unnoticed
No prayer unanswered
All are delivered to His heavenly realm.

So back to letting go…

God give me the strength
God give me the wisdom
God gve me the passion to fix what needs fixing or better yet…fix it for me.

So, to a new me,

No more pain,
No more doubt,
No more worry
I let go Lord.
Take over fully.

For who better to take the wheel than the one who designed me to fulfil my destiny.
Take over, ‘Jesus take the wheel’ of my life,
Steer me clear of myself, the world’s wicked ways and all that is against me.

Dear God,
I need your help
I need you to take out the trash for me

Dear God,
I have let in so much rubbish...piles of it
I do not even clearly know what is good and whats trash

Dear God,
My mind is a garbage pit .
For years now, I have taken in this world

28 years of society dumping and me absorbing
My thoughts Dear God, are far from pure

I thank you lord for you wash me white as snow
That you will remove all the garbage and replacace it with gold

Father, my creator, I pray to you now to restore my mind.

Dear heavenly father,
take out the trash, fill me with your spirit.
Fill me with truth and light.

I thank you lord for it is done.

Nibebe

Lord, this journey seems so long,
Lord, this journey feels so hard,
So many things I do not understand Lord,

Angels watching over me,
Nibebe
Holy Spirit my truth my guide,
Nibebe
Lord Jesus my protector,
Nibebe

For I feel tired and worn out Lord,
My spirit is low
My heart torn, damaged, bruised and badly beaten
My mind, tarnished, tainted, overwhelmingly crowded

How do we know where to go, Lord
How do we know what to do?
Many people enter our lives lord, how do we know the good and the bad?


Lord carry me
Fight for me

Jesus fight for my loved ones

Nibebe

a new dawn yes...but let the pruning continue...

Waking up to a new day ..its dawned on me….
I was recently fighting to keep hold of relationships that are not meant to be,
Friends,…who are not true friends.

Simply because you went to high school together and have a past, does not qualify someone as a friend, a companion, a dear one. For a friend is loyal, true...

It’s been a painful pruning process.
Please be sure what you pray for as it comes to pass….
When you ask Him to reveal your TRUE friends…He will
When you ask Him to bring you a life long partner, He will
Thing is…are you ready for all that?

Yesterday, I prayed for grace, grace to be a quite and gentle spirit and not attack a person who had said something pretty nasty about me, which was false…and all these years was my ‘friend’…
I prayed for grace as I sat there smiling, keeping up appearances when all I wanted to do was confront another who I know is false in all ways possible...
I sat and prayed for grace, for if it was up to me (my sinful self), I would have given them a word or two in colorful language and maybe added a swift gesture from my hand to their cheek...yes…I know…sad

Reality is, as you make the decision to follow Gods path, you will need to shed off some baggage…or you ask Him, and He does it for you as you are His child.
Sometimes the baggage you were so willing to drop is what He lets you keep, as you may need to carry it a little longer, and the bags you thought were most valuable, true and precious, He drops and asks you to move forward and not look back.

Moral of the story… actually believe you will receive what you ask for, and …ask for grace to accept what he chooses to fix in your life.
This may mean loosing your childhood friends, as they turn on you or when it dawns on you that you have never really mattered much to them (that’s the most painful one)

But as He takes out the rubbish in your life, it is all for you to be a cleaner, shinier, more beautiful vessel for His use.

So, say it with me: God give me the grace, for it is so hard sometimes, but if your driving, then I am definitely on the right bus.

Today I let go of the pain of those who have hurt me, knowingly or unknowingly…its gone.
I let go of the need to feel accepted for I only need acceptance from God and not wordly acceptance that is so flimsy and fickle.
I let go of the anger, hatred, bitterness that was trying to overwhelm me

It’s a new year and I am trusting God for a mentor, new friendships from Him, and simply…love in abundance

(**Wiki: Pruning is the process of removing certain above-ground elements from a plant; in landscaping this process usually involves removal of diseased, non-productive, or otherwise unwanted portions from a plant...The purpose of pruning is to shape the plant by controlling or directing plant growth, to maintain the health of the plant, or to increase the yield or quality of flowers and fruits.)